Turn back time;

Ever felt like you just needed to turn back time and change things that you did.

Yeah I'm feeling like that right now. This baby thing is tough. I'm in the most foul mood most of the time. The only thing I was drawing strength from was how excited Chance had became and I arrive home yesterday to him being less then excited and it carried on into this morning. I know he didn't want this but you don't solely need to blame it on me alone. It isn't only y fault it takes two to tango. He did make me eat more then just toast this morning because the little bean wanted more apparently.

Another upsetting thing is that Saturday he had decided we were getting married to take care of it all, he even went to the extreme of calling my father and asking if he could marry me. We were going to do it before he went back to Norfolk but now it seems like it won't be happening at all. and all he can say is you always get what you want... A baby... A husband... And like I told him I don't even have any of that and won't for a bit and I didn't want a child now. I wanted a fiancé....

Needless to say some moments I wish I hadn't of gotten pregnant. This is a lot to deal with at my age... And without support it only hurts me and makes my days drag on...